I think my emotions might be the key (or at least one of the keys) to get my brain out of "writing lock". A few minutes ago I wrote something on Allpoetry. It was in a free write section where members of that site can post a topic and anyone can write about it. So I chose the topic that appeared first, which was on heartbreak. It was timed to I had to pick up the pace a bit. My god it was like the flood gates opened, the amount of imagery and raw emotion I put into that poem. I actually surprised myself, it was interesting. I think I need something to force me to write, like a prompt or something. I haven't written something like that for a long time, I think tonight I regained some of the spark I lost. I know for sure that I am very far from what I once was, but after writing that I think I might have taken another step.
This is what I wrote:
"Like a thousand needless driven through my heart, you left me. My soul swallowed by the void, shattering in the abyss. I cry for the loss, for the fire that went out. I scream at the betrayal of your eyes and the venom of your smile. No longer am I in your light, no longer will I be restricted by you. Yet my heart still yearns for the warmth that once was, the light that was my soul. All I can ask is why? Why rip out the beating in my chest and devoured whole by the darkness?" - Melody Of Oblivion
P.S - I think just BECAUSE the topic was about heartbreak is the reason I wrote so well, but at least it's something.
I saw "...flood gates..." and my mind jumped to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flow_(psychology)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on getting your spark back!
I find timed writing scary. OK not scary, maybe a bit exhilarating. Especially when I'm participating in a text version of musical chairs!
Good going. I say, whatever works and feels right as a strategy to light your flame is what you should continue. The only strange part for me is every time you say something like, "to regain my former ability." Because surely that former ability also had room for improvement, right? It depends if you're talking about regaining your ability to evoke and articulate emotions, or simply writing good poetry. Of course, the former doesn't guarantee good "poetry", but the latter is somewhat dependent on the former. Just make sure you don't "live in the past" too much. I still think you should explore new topics though, not just romance/heartbreak/woe/etc.
ReplyDeleteI sit here in light's way
ReplyDeleteTo sleepless light,
Myself I do condemn
Of seizing night,
To sunless dayless days
Of sunless skies,
But dreamlessly I dreamt
Like fireflies
For suns a vibrant grey
I wrote this at 5am last night, and the topic I chose was based on being up all night on a computer. There's some more depth to the poem though, and the choice of words/references, but I'll leave that to you. Might not even be a good poem though, I don't know...
One more thing:
ReplyDeleteNotice that 1. the ends of the sentences end like this: "ay", "ight", "emn", "ight", "ays", "skies", "dreamt", "flies", "grey". The pattern is like
1-2-3-2-1-2-3-2-1
2. Furthermore, the sentences go back and forth between 6 and 4 syllables.
poem was heart wrenching...you need to spellcheck before you post...needless to needles..(it disrupts the concentration)..what pray could you be writing about....a girl, a family member..sounds like this is about someone you love who is no longer in your life...keep up the good work Crimz....
ReplyDelete@Guitarman3: The owner of this blog is MelodyofOblivion, the one who posted that is him, not me. Perhaps your comment was directed at him, with the last part directed to me. If I'm just very confused, I'm sorry about that ><
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