For the past few days, I've actually been able to keep up with a third of my schedule. And when I say a third I mean I've been able to write a poem a day. I haven't had a lot of exercise and I haven't even begun to write my short stories.
In truth I'm still distracted. It is very easy for people to say, "Don't think about unnecessary thoughts" and yet it creeps into my mind out of no where and it lingers, eventually turning into conscious thought.
Pretending to be without emotion and actually having no emotions are two different things. In the fantasy series Vampire Diaries, vampires have the ability to turn off their emotions like a switch so they don't have to feel. I wish I had the switch, so I can turn it off for a while, because it's bothersome.
I'm not strong emotionally and I don't pretend to be. I'd rather live my life being honest with my emotions than suppress them and devour me from the inside.
It is hard, even when I am 100% focused (maybe not 100 but near it) distraction always occurs, I wish it would stop. Meditation maybe?
I've also noticed while writing my poems, they all seem to be the same. I've tried to write differently on different subjects, but it all comes back to the same thing. Love, lost, angst, dark, personal, etc. However while reading it, even if its love, there is a dark nature to it. It is not as blissful as the ones I used to write, but with a bit more realism.