I'll be posting all my poems on a site called Allpoetry.com and here is the link to my page.
http://allpoetry.com/melodyofoblivion
I think my stories I will post here, so expect and update here every 2-3 days. Depending on how busy I am
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Unwavering Determination
It has definitely been a while, but for some reason I feel a determination to succeed I haven't felt in a while. I think it came from the inspiration from a drama called My Lucky Star. It is a really great show, yes it's true that dramas tend to be very unrealistic, but it gave me hope. And with the support of a few others, I don't think I can fail.
I know it will be hard with many bumps on the way, but with the way I'm feeling right now, it feels like I can't lose. Now that I have no longer any distractions from a torn heart (because I threw it away), I can focus better.
However I hope I won't be able to do this alone, I have yet to find people with the same pursuits as me. Maybe one or two currently, but I hope to find more.
I may be foolish and naive, but I want to believe I can just like The Little Train That Could.
I know it will be hard with many bumps on the way, but with the way I'm feeling right now, it feels like I can't lose. Now that I have no longer any distractions from a torn heart (because I threw it away), I can focus better.
However I hope I won't be able to do this alone, I have yet to find people with the same pursuits as me. Maybe one or two currently, but I hope to find more.
I may be foolish and naive, but I want to believe I can just like The Little Train That Could.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
New Beginnings - The Training Regime
I have a lot to do in the next three months, because I am a budding author and a college student. I don't have a whole lot of time for anything else.
I decided I need to train, on my mind and my body.
I have the perfect training regime to get my mind back into writing shape. For too long I've been sitting and doing nothing but school work, I've avoided writing because of the fear nothing will come to me when I look at the blank page. However, if I take this seriously I'm sure I can do it.
But in order for me to get back into my writing form, I must go back to my roots, before certain events in my life started to change me: Poetry.
This is where it all began, four years ago when I wrote my first master piece; Frozen Flower. I definitely think if i go back to poetry, I can find the spark I once lost. I may have sacrificed my heart, but perhaps believing is not a bad idea, at least it can give me hope and that is all I have at the moment.
The idea is this, write one poem each day and post it, no matter what it is or how bad it is. I'll post one here and a site I've gone back to called AllPoetry.com. Some great stuff there.
Another part of my training program is story writing, there is a site called the Seventh Sanctum and in it has a story idea generator. What I will do each week is write two stories, the plot and theme will be given to my by the generator.
This week these are the two I will be writing:
1. A character becomes kind during the story. During the story, a character eats something that disagrees with them.
2. The story must have a gerbil at the end. A character becomes attracted to someone during the story.
The generator can set with up to 5 different elements of complexity to it, and I decided to start with two elements. Keep it simple, no use trying to stress myself to come up with something good.
Finally, training my body. I need confidence and to expand my self esteem, so why not start with my body. Work out, eat right and by summer have a killer body.
Despite the work load from school I hope to be able to achieve all these goals I've set out to do, it's time to eliminate all distractions and focus on the task at hand, I have given up on the pursuit of a certain kind of happiness but hopefully in turn it wont be in vain. I also hope I won't be tempted again either.
I've also decided to put my novels on hiatus at the moment, I can't defile my stories with a weakened mind and heart. Until I can reach the plateau I was standing on a few years ago, I will not go back to them yet.
This all begins monday.
I decided I need to train, on my mind and my body.
I have the perfect training regime to get my mind back into writing shape. For too long I've been sitting and doing nothing but school work, I've avoided writing because of the fear nothing will come to me when I look at the blank page. However, if I take this seriously I'm sure I can do it.
But in order for me to get back into my writing form, I must go back to my roots, before certain events in my life started to change me: Poetry.
This is where it all began, four years ago when I wrote my first master piece; Frozen Flower. I definitely think if i go back to poetry, I can find the spark I once lost. I may have sacrificed my heart, but perhaps believing is not a bad idea, at least it can give me hope and that is all I have at the moment.
The idea is this, write one poem each day and post it, no matter what it is or how bad it is. I'll post one here and a site I've gone back to called AllPoetry.com. Some great stuff there.
Another part of my training program is story writing, there is a site called the Seventh Sanctum and in it has a story idea generator. What I will do each week is write two stories, the plot and theme will be given to my by the generator.
This week these are the two I will be writing:
1. A character becomes kind during the story. During the story, a character eats something that disagrees with them.
2. The story must have a gerbil at the end. A character becomes attracted to someone during the story.
The generator can set with up to 5 different elements of complexity to it, and I decided to start with two elements. Keep it simple, no use trying to stress myself to come up with something good.
Finally, training my body. I need confidence and to expand my self esteem, so why not start with my body. Work out, eat right and by summer have a killer body.
Despite the work load from school I hope to be able to achieve all these goals I've set out to do, it's time to eliminate all distractions and focus on the task at hand, I have given up on the pursuit of a certain kind of happiness but hopefully in turn it wont be in vain. I also hope I won't be tempted again either.
I've also decided to put my novels on hiatus at the moment, I can't defile my stories with a weakened mind and heart. Until I can reach the plateau I was standing on a few years ago, I will not go back to them yet.
This all begins monday.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
The Sacrifice
I am writing this for one reason, a written statement of my decision and hopefully it is a correct one.
Like many great figures in our long and rather blood history. Kings and queens of entire nations, where a single decision makes or breaks a nation. The weight of many humans lives on their shoulders, I'd like to believe that mine is much heavier, for what I'm about to do. It takes will do decide on something but it takes courage to act on it.
After reading a blog written by a very good friend of mine, I realized just how far I've come in this existence of twenty one years...which is not very far. I have not accomplished all that I set out to achieve, and in my fleeting pursuit of self discovery, I found that there are aspects of me that are preventing this. Like all humans, it takes a lot to admit your fears, takes even more to face them.
The fear of failure, the fear of rejection, the fear of unrequited love, the fear of being alone.
I think there is a saying that in order to gain something, you must first sacrifice something else. An easy exmaple would be a student striving to achieve an 'A' on a test, what he sacrifices is his time and energy.
For me to succeed I must also do the same, but my sacrifice is much more than time and energy.
Watching my parents while growing up I decided I didn't want to be like them and I wanted to be different. I fought hard against what I thought might have been my destiny. Yet for the past few years, no matter how hard I tried to fight against fate, fate pushed back harder, so I decided to give up instead. There is no use trying to alter that part of my life when it is useless. I don't see the point of torturing myself for something that's hopeless and fruitless. My time and energy could be better spent else where.
I will not, however give up on my dreams. Ambition is what drives us to succeed, the greater the ambition, the greater the sacrifice. My greatest dream is to become an author, I may not be the best at writing but, I will succeed. Our limitation is our beliefs, if we believe we'll fail then we will.
A good example of this is the one my business teacher gave us today. A Math teacher at high school was told that she will be teaching three classes, one class with over achievers and high grades, one with average grades, and one with low grades. At the end of the year the out come of each class remains the same and she was fired, because what she was told was a lie. All those three classes, were a mixture of students and all of them average, because she believed each class was different, she taught differently and mark differently and the results speak for themselves. Our beliefs are a powerful weapon as well as a weakness.
One belief of mine has proved to be a weakness, one I will now do without. And with this sacrifice, I hope to obtain my dreams and walk on a path of light that was once covered in shadow.
What I sacrifice is the beating in my chest.
Like many great figures in our long and rather blood history. Kings and queens of entire nations, where a single decision makes or breaks a nation. The weight of many humans lives on their shoulders, I'd like to believe that mine is much heavier, for what I'm about to do. It takes will do decide on something but it takes courage to act on it.
After reading a blog written by a very good friend of mine, I realized just how far I've come in this existence of twenty one years...which is not very far. I have not accomplished all that I set out to achieve, and in my fleeting pursuit of self discovery, I found that there are aspects of me that are preventing this. Like all humans, it takes a lot to admit your fears, takes even more to face them.
The fear of failure, the fear of rejection, the fear of unrequited love, the fear of being alone.
I think there is a saying that in order to gain something, you must first sacrifice something else. An easy exmaple would be a student striving to achieve an 'A' on a test, what he sacrifices is his time and energy.
For me to succeed I must also do the same, but my sacrifice is much more than time and energy.
Watching my parents while growing up I decided I didn't want to be like them and I wanted to be different. I fought hard against what I thought might have been my destiny. Yet for the past few years, no matter how hard I tried to fight against fate, fate pushed back harder, so I decided to give up instead. There is no use trying to alter that part of my life when it is useless. I don't see the point of torturing myself for something that's hopeless and fruitless. My time and energy could be better spent else where.
I will not, however give up on my dreams. Ambition is what drives us to succeed, the greater the ambition, the greater the sacrifice. My greatest dream is to become an author, I may not be the best at writing but, I will succeed. Our limitation is our beliefs, if we believe we'll fail then we will.
A good example of this is the one my business teacher gave us today. A Math teacher at high school was told that she will be teaching three classes, one class with over achievers and high grades, one with average grades, and one with low grades. At the end of the year the out come of each class remains the same and she was fired, because what she was told was a lie. All those three classes, were a mixture of students and all of them average, because she believed each class was different, she taught differently and mark differently and the results speak for themselves. Our beliefs are a powerful weapon as well as a weakness.
One belief of mine has proved to be a weakness, one I will now do without. And with this sacrifice, I hope to obtain my dreams and walk on a path of light that was once covered in shadow.
What I sacrifice is the beating in my chest.
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